A New Alcoholic Discovery

I am normally not an alcohol fan as alcohol makes me tipsy very easily and somewhat switches on my "Laughing Button"

When that laughing button is switched on, I would say: "Im Unstoppable"

Hysterical Laughter is a very high possibility.

And of course, I dislike the taste of alcohol too. Except for selected beers and wines.

So, when I discovered the yumminess of Korean rice wine, I fell in love with it. IMMEDIATELY!!!

It is so easy to drink, tastes like ricey malt and has many interesting flavours! It also reminds me of yoghurt as it has a slight sour tang to it.

So one day, my friend and I went to this korean place where they had an opening promotion for their rice wines at: $10 a bottle (750ml) and we drank ourselves silly.

Or rather, I drank myself silly. Cos it just tasted soooo GOOD

Until.........................

I puked the raspberry flavour yoghurt rice wine and the korean pancake out. -.-

WOOHOOO what a waste...

So I was raving to my friend and she recommended me a brand sold at NTUC called: Makkoli

The original name for the Korean traditional Rice wine is called Makgeolli
Somewhat the same.

She even mentioned that it has health benefits??!!

I tried to find it in normal NTUCs but I couldnt until I went to the Scotts NTUC special and saw them!!!

The label wrote 'Korean rice beer'

It IS SUPPOSED TO BE WINE. Hmmmmmm
I wasn't sure if it were the ones I love but I got 2 bottles anyway as it's soooo hard to get them.

BINGO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They were!!! Im sooo going to start stocking them up!!!

BECAUSE THIS SHIT INDEED DOES HAVE HEALTH BENEFITS!!!!!

The highlights: It helps in digestion and SLOWS DOWN AGING

Not forgetting that it's Cheap too, just $5.50 a bottle

Oh.My.God     

Awesome-ness!

Now Life has a whole N.E.W meaning to live! (At least for me)

Imagine how much we can save on botox and surgical procedures :)

How people will always remark, " Wow you so TOTALLY Don't look your age! You look GREAT" :)

For more details, read link:
http://www.koreaaward.com/kor/5817

***Remember I'll fight you when I see any of you trying to snatch that last bottle of Makkoli from the NTUC

I WILL TAKE YOU DOWN
Im watching you


Make love, not war xoxo
Gerra

Of Emptiness and Itches

Came across this interesting quote:

"I have a simple philosophy. Fill what's empty. Empty what's full. And scratch where it itches."
-Alice Longworth


Now which brings me to my question:
Do you think we at some points, have an empty kinda feelin?

OR MAYBE

There is a secret magic potion for A 'Perpetual High' like state 99.9% of the time?
(Drug free please!)

I would love to fill mine with lots of Love and Laughter. (Goood things start with 'L'!)

And when im drunk, good things then start with 'F'! i.e
Fornicating
Fondue
Fondling
F**king  sorry!
Fosters (beer)
Fidgeting
Fwah!!!!

And so the lists rolls on...............................................................

Fashion
Fame
Falalalala!!!

And I think: How nice it will be when your itch gets scratched by that special someone's hand.

AHhhhhhhhhhah ahhhhh
*Higher darling higher... to the left LEfT!!
AHhhhhhhhhhh............

TRSKkkkk!

What the hell.. I am certainly going empty. :(

******************************************************************************
Which brings to mind, when I was happily reading in the train when my phone rang.
It was my mum.

Reason she called is to ask: "Have I taken the umbrella?"

I said: "Nope"

She asked: "Then who took it?!"

I replied, impatiently: "How do I know??"

Then she said "ok" and hang up

Suddenly my brain was a myraid of thoughts, and a sense of overwhelming sadness came over me.
For my mum.

She is a housewife.
All I ever see her do, are household chores. Come to think of it, she can be bordering abit on anal.
What she dislikes, she nags, but things never change. The chores go unappreciated, taken for granted. Well she could really just don't bother and leave us to our own defences.

But ultimately, its still Mum who will bear the brunt of shit and with the other two males who think they are kings.
Just because , Mum won't allow that
And I guess I could help out abit, for which I really really dislike!
Doing chores really suck. I know how to do it. I would gladly do it. But I dislike being expected to do it just because Im a girl.
I get overwhemled by the imbalance that the two other kings get to slap their backsides and go prop their legs elsewhere without being expected to help.
For I am stubborn and imperfect.

I really do feel sad. My mum getting a tad worked up over a missing umbrella......

Im confused.

Isnt there other things she could actually get excited about in life?

Sometimes I can see the broodiness on her face. Sometimes the moodiness is like a thick blanket, threatening to suffocate whoever is in the room.

Plus incessant nagging whenever her mood befits. I've learned to shut it out and wish she would lighten up, go clubbing or something.

Maybe she really is lonely. My dad is not only the most unromantic person in the world and that I would term him 'kayu' in terms of a relationship. LOL
NOT to say he is not a good dad cause he is my dad. :) Im duty bound.

Maybe he really doesnt know how to express himself.

I often think: Why is it so hard?

Is it because of our inflated egos that we never show affection as easily ?

OR

A really low self esteem we think we would fail long before we even got the guts to try it?
Even for something really simple? :(

OR

Probably it's just human's selfish nature to take things for granted and that 'MISERY loves company'
-If I don't feel good, I'll make sure you don't too.
PSYCHOTIC....

OR

It's just easier to hide and wish that things will be right once again or bad things will just go away......
Delusional? Very likely!

I feel sad. Really. Probably so much so that that's what prompted me to write this entry.

WHY?

AND I realised you can never build your happiness upon someone else's or if we based our happiness on external events, we'll never be happy.
Because if you do, what you are gonna get is: My mum.

It has got to come from within.

HOW?

*Great sigh*
Adding to the fact that we often like to let our minds run too wild and we start to scare ourselves. 胡思乱想


On a side note:

Even my friends tell me they get shocked when they see my mum smiling at them whenever they come visit in these recent times!
YES! Its only in recent years she is able to let go some and stop being so uptight. You can only imagine how uber moddy she has been in the past.

Well the naggings never stop, for which right now I've associated those mini bouts of nagginess as her way of showing affection.

And these have somehow been projected onto me as the other extreme end of my personality.

I dislike nagging and/or screaming.
I did tell some of my friends: if you make me start to nag or scream at you in any way (with the exception of screaming with laughter), it will cause me to build alot of resentment.
I will detach so I don't start or even resent the person.

Running away? OR simply detachment? Maybe both. But that's just me. Though I would much rather practise the art of detachment.

HOWEVER detaching doesnt mean I don't care.
I merely let you choose your own way of feelings while I sort out mine.

Now All I would say is:
Either Start finding that itch and scratch it! OR Look for your deserved happiness within!

You totally deserve it.



The girl who is just a girl,
G

Now That's What I call Life: "Where Im the Nut & you are the Screw"

Living in the mystery of things sometimes do have its ups & downs.
I've always prided myself to be a person of value and responsibility.
Only just recently, I've completed a simple assignment (OR so I thought) when I received a phone call saying I have an 'attitude problem'

ATTITUDE??? YEAAAAAAA!!!!

Well, Im no saint and therefore at times, I admit I do have an Attitude problem. But NEVER on that day.

Thank god the person who conveyed the message knew me and trusted me well enough to know I was speaking the truth.
I wasn't even angry when I heard this accusation.

Annoyed? YES. (Cause I hate to be wronged)

Angry? NOPE.


Tell me: How can staying silent and nodding in consentment to every request made been an attitude problem????

HOW CAN I take responsibility for the things I don't know??!
Bloodeh hell

That said, I would willingly try to change the things that I can.

I do care about making others happy as much I can, but I wouldn't make myself unhappy and act from a fear of loss when I cannot.

I guess everyone has a right to feel cranky or moody.

-Maybe she just needed to vent some frustrations that has nothing to do with the assignment at hand.

-Maybe she just didn't feel that I was friendly and that she needed to see more smiles.
(Well I was having stomach problems. I couldnt smile when i wasn't feeling that comfortable myself. SObs!)

-Maybe it was a case of miscommunication. You know how broken telephones go.
(As it seemed to be in the end)

To add to this episode, I had a prior worse* experience that has nothing to do with humans but with nature.
Thankfully, I received great care and concern to help tide me through the day! :)

*If I typed it out here, those evil ones would be so glad for my misfortunes. So I shall leave it to my discretion!! HAHAHA BOOBOO!!

Life can be hard at times and bad happenings can erode a person's capacity to endure grief without resentment.
I try to fall back on great memories and survive when times are hard. Practice makes this easier. Im still practising.... S.L.O.W.L.Y..... MY god! it can be so hard!

That's why I never stop practising (yes, slowlyyyy). Living everyday like a pleasant surprise, balance difficult moments with joyous memories.

I choose to be honest where I would say I am imperfect, nor do I go out of my way to cover my faults.

I am perfectly imperfect. Whatever the hell this means!!!!!
:D

Just like anyone else, I get hurt, frustrated and upset. When shit happens! I find ways to breathe... BREATHE!! BREEEAAATTHHHHEEEEEEEE...... *wheeezzzeeee (MID age crisis!) Wheeezzzzeeeee!!!!

I prefer friendlier alternatives to unproductive competition........

I am a wonderful NUT case. And PROUD of it.

Now Come over!! And be my Screw!!! ___________ (insert some swear words of your choice)

I Love my work.
I'll Love you.
(Though no guarantees I may kick your ass or swear a lil in the process) :)


*Laughs Really Really Loudly
(where someone has likened my laughter to an elephant having an orgasm....)

XO,
Gerra

The Real Boyfriend

The Key Secret to every girls' heart. :) And Im not even talking about Tiffany & Co.....

When She stares at your mouth, Kiss her

When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy, cause she thinks she's stronger than you,
Grab her and dont let go

When she starts cursing at you and trying to act all tough,
Kiss her and tell her you love her.

When she's quiet, Ask her whats wrong

When she ignores you, give her your attention

When she pulls away, pull her back

When you see her at her worst,Tell her She's beautiful

When you see her cry, hold her and don't say a word

When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind

When she's scared, protect her

When she steals your favourite hoodie, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn't answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is ok

When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up

When she says that she loves you, she really does more than you can understand

When she grabs at your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh.

When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold

When she looks into your eyes, dont look away until she does.

When she says its over, she still wants you to be hers.

Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything.

When she's mad, hug her tight and never let go

When she says she's ok, don't believe it. Talk with her and 10yrs later she'll remember you.

Call her at 12am on her birthday to tell her you love her

Treat her like she's all that matters to you

Stay up all night with her when she's sick

Watch her favourite movie/show even if you think it's stupid

Let her wear your clothes

When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

Let her know she's important

Don't talk about other girls around her

Kiss her in the pouring rain

When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:
"Whose ASS am I kicking, baby?!!!"

Hearts,
Gerra

Bitch-Trying to be One

Definition of a:

Bitch (noun): A woman who won't bang her head against the wall obsessing over someone else's opinion. She understands that if someone does not approve of her, it's just one person's opinion; therefore it's of no real importance. She doesn't try to live up to anyone's standards, only her own.

:)

I'm trying to be one around my boyfriend because he has been giving me a hard time on my so-called tummy and love handles. Which I have concluded; perfectly normal after I have openly stared at a model's waist line when she was changing. HAHA!

She preferred to call it 'muffin top' just because it sounds cuter and less gross and unfatlike. Which I TOTALLY AGREE.

I'm not hating my boy for harping on those extra fats. I know where he is coming from and he is also a personal trainer to start with. Well, not good for me. or maybe, Lucky ME!
I also admit my little tummy has grown a tad as compared to the past. I indulged in too many cheeses and cheese cakes thinking that it made my boobs grow fuller... :(

Ultimately, fats do not go to places that really matter......... And when they start to grow in unwanted places, it is freaking hard to get rid of.

So Bf starts to nag me into eating healthier foods, do leg raises and hip raises.
MY god I swear you need 200% discipline and major MAJOR determination to just keep doing it for 4 reps of 30 everyday.

So my question is, what is considered normal? Or it really just boils down to individuals' needs after all? To me, although I do not like my muffin top or little tummy that much, I felt it's kind of 'still acceptable' ??????

Of course, fear sometimes strike me that one day it'll just keep accumulating and get bigger. My bf will probably leave me then, because it's avoidable and I brought it upon myself. He did indeed say he can overlook it if it's hormonal imbalance fat gain. HAH

But seriously I've also been more conscious of what I eat recently and only occasionally indulge in sinful foods during weekends. He pointed out that it is in my best interest and ultimately I'm the one who will reap the benefits of staying trim and healthy in the end.

TRUE.

Much as I would like to become a bitch, it really does not make any sense to go against my body, however much I want to fight my boy's incessant reminders. ARGHHHHHhhhhhhhh

BUT I won't obsess over it. I've got a huge load of confidence for now.

But as females, we do at times really need to put our foot down and stand up for what's right for ourselves instead of being dictated solely by boyfriends and husbands.

Being a bitch is sometimes good.
Sometimes they do like a little bit of bitchy spice in their ladies ;)

So many things to be mindful of just for being female:
Face, hair, body, busts, giving birth, walking in heels and many more!

WHat to do??????? What to dooooooooo??????? 

Living in an Ironic World

A pious man explained to his followers:

It is evil to take lives. I drop my net in the lake and scoop out a hundered fishes. I place the fishes on the bank, where they flop and twirl.
"Don't be scared," I tell those fishes. "I am saving you from drowning."
Soon enough, the fishes grow calm and lie still. Yet sad to say, I am always too late. The fishes expire.
And because it is evil to waste anything, I take those dead fishes to market and I sell them for a good price.
With the money I receive, I buy more nets so I can save more fishes.
-Anonymous

Reflections

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
A wise man once said this,
"You can never go back in time to make a brand new start but you can always make a brand new ending starting from now".

I came across this particular quote from a website and it just struck me on the true meaning of the verse.

We don't have the ability to choose the surroundings or family in which we grew up in, but we can definitely make better choices in our lives so we won't have regrets....

Many people, at the age of 50/60/70 or so always tink: [wat if] when I was younger and I chose to do this or that, I WOULD HAVE been a _______ or I might have gotten my dream car etc etc.

Or worse still:
This! cannot be done! Or else, I would have done so long ago..(*note: when probed, they will say they have never tried doing it before, just "felt" that it cannot be done) and normally, they are the uncles/aunties who sit, propping their leg up on the chair in the coffeeshop, digging their noses and drinking beer, complaining about injustifications done to them.

Familiar right?

Whereas for the pessimistic, when faced with problems, they sit by, doing nothing, allowing the calamity to befall them, without fail, saying: "no choice what. life still has to go on...."
And when you give them a solution to get out of this shit, they tell you: Im already stuck here, how else do you want me to move??!!

Sometimes I ask myself: what is actually wrong here??

It is really disturbing sometimes...

But then I learnt:
There are only 2 types of businesses.

1) My business

&

2) Mind my own business

That is, only to give advice and suggestions when asked. Otherwise, let people live their own lives and make their own decisions and mistakes.

*Note: This does not mean I don't care for my friends or family.
But it sure doesn't help for me to be living in their lives instead of my own.

Don't we always are guilty of getting carried away by other people's drama or emotions making ourselves upset when we don't get what we want?

It is never easy, but often times I believe it is possible by giving myself gentle reminders, for I am still learning too. :)

Lastly, Not forgetting this very strong and meaningful phrase taught to me by someone wise:
The day you stop learning is the day you stop earning and The day you think you have learned enough is the start of your downfall...
(YOOHOO!!! Especially for those ego driven people out there!! * WAVES!!)

I have a friend, who told me this funny scenario: people always like to think negative in the right times and think positive in the bad times...

Hahha
E.g When the shares market or economic market is doing badly, people wil think: Aiyo, don't think it'll be that bad la. Government says everything will be ok...don't worry... and then they start to pray.
So when finally, the market crashes, you will then read up alot on people jumping off tall buildings in the papers...

And when economic progress is looking good, people worry still, that it's too good to be true and they start doing funny things like short changing themselves and making impulsive decisions, living in self denial, thus again leading to their downfall.. AGAIN.

Yes... Ironic isn't it??

Have a great *HUMP day everyone!!!

*Wednesday is Hump day according to this friend of mine.
Just cause it's mid week and after we cross the bump, TGIF comes and its "Weeeeee" down the slope, all the way! :D


Smoochies & Kissies,
Gerra

Men Are from Mars, Sporean Women are from Jupiter?

Now I really think Im overcompensating on my blogposts. But what the hell.


Today I wanna bleep about:

What's with Sporean men nowadays talking about Sporean girls being not good enough and too demanding for them?! They'll rather go for foreign brides?! Sporean girls are too materialistic. They want too many things.....???

NOT TRUE!

How sexist! And so in defence to this particular remark, I've had the honoured opportunity to throw this question back at said 'Sporean man'

Me," What makes you think the problem lies with the females? Have you thought that maybe it is the men who couldn't catch up?

Heh heh heh...

'Said Sporean man' was stumped. He admitted maybe. So MAYBE he is not so sexist after all.
(Im sorry XXX!! You know who you are! Im not targeting enemic arrows at you. But if you happen to read this, Well You read it!! hhahahahah)

So right here Im not going to try to take sides, but choosing to tackle this interesting issue as a Sporean female.

Though I count myself lucky because when desperate measures are needed, I can pass myself off as some foreigner, considering I get lots of comments from people saying I look like various nationalities..... haha!!!!!!


*Waves! Im not materialistic!


So! What is it that Sporean men are looking for really? For them to be marrying foreign brides and claiming that Sporean women are 'Off'.


A Great roll in the sack?

Not mind staying in with parents after marriage because housing is too expensive?

Expecting women to work and do household chores and have babies allatthesametime?!

Wash hubbie's feet and bring slippers?

Not go on romantic dates anymore because "Im just too tired from work,says hubby"?

Expecting us to still have a whistle worthy type figure and tight skin after bearing 4 children?

Screaming at the kids while hubby sleeps on with drool coming out of mouth?

Expecting us to be understanding while he goes have fun with boys on 'Boy's night Out'?

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  The list goes on toilet roll long.....

OH my god. I get cold feet as I come up with more shit.

So my point is:

Sporean females have evolved into choosing not to take in nonsense-Ssss mentioned above. Times have changed.

So they demand ('Request' if this makes you happier :D) a fair share of contribution from hubby because a relationship/marriage is a two way traffic. What about us having to put up with men's fatal weaknesses since the ICE age then HUH?

If we have to put up with such nonsense, naturally we want monetary or material benefits to compensate us for better well being of our mind, body and soul. Technically speaking.

I would surely call this a: Cause and Effect Phenomenon.

Going for foreign less developed females just because you are afraid or JUST cannot fulfill is nothing wrong. BUT Dont just stereotype us without self reflecting on your flaws first. No one's perfect. That's what communication is for!

GrrrRRrRRRr......

***Footnote: Let's cut some slack to those guys who have really met truly incorrigible materialistic girls who have got their priorities all wrong.
And also! To give some credit to those mature guys who have got their priorities all right! :)


I've said my piece.


Peace out,
Gerra

My Awesome Step over into 2012

I admit. Im a procrastinator For I am only Human. And A very Flawed one indeed.

Thus 'The' New Year Resolution of 2012. To Start My Blog entry With :
How I Transited over to 2012 With a Bang.

~~~Virgin Surf Trip In Cherating Malaysia with a bunch of piggy doggy friends! as the chinese saying goes:
猪朋狗友~~~

It was the Most Awesome New year ever!!! Very likely cos its not spent in Singapore doing sticky yucky boring countdowns..

Anyway Surfing is highly recommended for the mind, body and soul.

Mind being ---Peace and tranquility just sitting on your surf board, staring out to sea and watching the waves with no fear of drowning cos the board floats.
Secondly, water level is just up to waist level!

Body being---You get a great tan albeit abit too wrinkled and shrivelly....

Soul being--- Smack in the face of nature. Away from the mundane, the rat race and the nonsensical.


Soooo, Introducing the gang with a bang *Drum Roll*

From left: Sebastian (Mini, cos of his tinny eyes not seen here), Zanne, Moi, & Stanley (Fire cos There's fire in his eyes, not seen here either)

I wonder what's with eyes nowadays.

Off WE go in the wee hours of the morning for the drive up to Cherating! Yahoooo!!

Some cheesy pics we took along the way

I was caught on candid camera snoozing. Im only thankful my mouth was closed and I wasn't drooling. Thanks to Mini for sure!

I was trying to prove that Fire is not a cm taller than 169cm.... heh heh heh

Mini is tall. I am jealous.

FInally!!

 The Beach!!

 We were really really nervous for our surf adventure. We aren't good swimmers. AT ALL

Adding on to the already nervous tension. I have no idea what he was trying to do at that time. hahhah

We were supposed to be watching a safety video on surfing.

As you can see, I look really really nervous.



The boards are really heavy!!!

Our Awesome instructor!



Here WE are coming!

Fire got soo Good He managed to surf 3 boards at one go. *kowtow*

That's me! :D I managed to actually surf! Im on cloud 9

 How we were actually taught to surf is that, the instructor first told us to try out the board on the sand to determine which stance we will be using i.e right /left foot in front. Goofy vs Natural stance.

And off we go dragging our boards like canines into the water! Macho comes with us.

Further and further we go and then we were taught how to watch the waves.
So when the right one is coming along, WE jump onto our boards quickly and paddle towards shore as fast we can. Macho then helps us along by giving us a strong push, so when the wave breaks and crashes against our boards, there is a force great enough for us to stand up and balance and surf the wave!!!

WE did this for 4 hours straight.
Freaking great experience. I was dying from the cramps in my muscles. But Still I clung on, to my board.
At the end of it all, I got horrible abrasions on my elbows, knees and toes.
*Plus, I got whacked on the chin by the board on the 2nd day of surfing. It made me see double + stars. Cut inner cheek and swollen chin. WTH.

These captions were not untrue....

Surrealism

Fire, being cheesy, stuffed a pack of clothes into his suit cause our hands were all busy carrying our boards.

So, to entertain our sick appetite for ugly pictures, he gamely posed this for us.

It was hilarious!!!

Fire is very upset the board is weighing 'his already not so impressive' height down.

The snacks and booze we brought. Thanks to the thief like escapade of removing them from Fire's dad's humble abode....... (the booze ---> the Macallen + 2 bottles of Red wine)

We stopped him by flailing our arms desperately from the open car window....

We are happy with our Icees :D

At this moment, we were discussing something really serious here. Trying to enlighten Fire how tampons work. And If The tampon will work for me when I go in the water to surf?!!! Hell!!!

After we have come to a conclusion and I was satisfied and convinced, We say cheese for the camera.

Happy Three Friends.

And so, More cheesy nonsense from Mini.

This is only one part.

I just don't understand why they like to take pics of people snoozing....



By this time, we were mostly high & tipsy with the exception of Mini. Cause he is a damn good drinker. Poor him. We played silly games that got us roaring with lots of crazy laughter. Laughter is the best medicine. WEll, at least for me.

A good example of the pic here. The challenge to stay unblurred while the cammie snaps in succession..
Loser Drinks!

FYI, Fire happens to be the weakest link in the night's games. Hilarious to the max. And have you tried to play charades with a very tipsy person ??? LOL

You gotta try it to love it!

Besides, we loved the whole experience so much that we are probably going to organise another trip !!! Yippee!!!

One Life. Live it.

To Surf with Love,

Gerra :)